My 6 hour long pitch

and my horrible haircut

I walked outside today and took a deep breath. It’s warm for the first time in a while where I’m from and I didn’t even really realize until 4 pm. I was inside trying to stay focused on the momentum I’m built from the week before. I couldn’t believe the feeling that came over me when I felt that mountain air in my lungs. I felt somewhat at peace, a feeling that’s a little rare for me. I understand how dramatic this sounds and I don’t really have a point here, I just wanted to say I’ve forgotten to look up once and while.

Anyways:

I’ve been stressing the point of attacking momentum when it comes. This is a reaction to an old tendency I had to get complacent, nervous, and to not believe that anything would come of it. Everything went right last week so I told myself to buckle down even harder, so I did but it only lasted so long.

Friday night, being tempted by the warm weather I thought deeply about going out and having fun. I decided not to. Kept building on the momentum.

And then Saturday hit. I was named a finalist into a pitch competition where I had to film a video pitching my business. It wasn’t long, no editing was required but that process destroyed me. It took me about 6 hours to complete a 90 second video. I prioritized one take because everyone should know how to pitch their business. But I just couldn’t get it. I kept messing up my script, then changing it, then getting frustrated because I felt I didn’t know my business.

But I never had to pitch it. I knew the opportunity in my mind but I never made it into an official script. At the end I had 162 videos on my phone, and one completed pitch. Quite honestly, I was pissed. I had to much work to do, and all I accomplished was this video I wasn’t even impressed by.

The format of the finals is basically an hour-long live session with two highly esteemed judges who tear down and critique pitches. One of those judges is one of the biggest names in the newsletter space. There are more pitches than an hour’s worth especially if conversations about them run long. Meaning, there’s a pretty good chance my video won’t get shown even though my application got through to the last round.

I will give myself one thing. Never once in my mind did I think it wasn’t worth it, I never thought about quitting once. Was I punching walls and yelling at my computer? Maybe. But I never looked for a way out as I might have done in the past, and I’m proud of that.

Anyways, Saturday night I went up to my friends shop where I spend most night where I want to lock in for work. I got there, worked for maybe 2 hours and then conversations about going out started again. I’ll be honest, I was saying very pro-going out things all it took was one of my friends to make the move. So, we went out.

I was so frustrated with the day I convinced myself it was okay. We went out and had fun. When I woke up, the negativity began to flood.

When I started inserting myself into entrepeneruship communities (that doesn’t sound good) I always heard people say “It’s okay to let yourself take a break”. I always thought that was naïve, especially as my work load and opportunity began to rise. But I was reading the sentence wrong. It’s not saying let yourself take a break as in take more breaks, it’s saying that when you inevitably do take a break, let yourself enjoy it, especially when you know you deserve it. Knowing when you deserve it is another thing lol)

I feel guilty every second I’m away from work, but I’m learning when it's okay. Right now it’s not okay most of the time, but sometimes it does have merit. I worked my butt off to keep momentum going and I’m scared shitless that I let some of that go this weekend, but I had a great fucking time and feel refreshed going into the new week.

Thanks for reading,

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Thoughts of the week:

• I use too many exclamation points when texting people I don’t know “Sounds great!”

• Dustin Poirier is my favourite professional athlete and that’s saying a lot behind Curry

• Don’t be scared of progress

• I’m horrified of progress

• Scheffler really is just better than everyone

• You’re probably going to fail, but try not to think about it

• I think about it

• You have no idea what you’re doing, but try not to think about it

• I think about this more

• A lot of people are rooting and helping me purely out of the goodness of their heart

• People look down on it too

• I liked living by myself, never thought I’d say that

• I’ve become anti-social because of it

• I miss playing sports

• Marathon training is back to not being on pace

• I’m learning what it takes for me to be productive

• If I pull this off it’s because of my incredibly fortunate situation

• I need to send texts to people I’ve ignored by accident and now I feel bad about it even though they’ve reached out twice

• If I pitch my newsletter business in front of someone who’s an expert in newsletters will it get shit on?

• Who cares, scared money don’t make no money.

• My hair is horrible in my pitch video

• I shouldn’t do this but here’s my pitch video that took a billion takes: