⏱️ Time is moving fast
and lavo can't keep up
Time is moving incredibly fast “thanks Jack we got that from the title” but seriously it’s moving quicker than I would like it to.
It’s almost April. I told myself if I had nothing by the time April rolled around, I would stop trying to start any business I was trying to start and recruit for a full time job. I was a little vague with the term nothing. I haven’t made a lot of money yet, (I’m a millionaire they just haven’t paid me), and I wouldn’t say that my business is all that large. But, I have fallen in love with it.
I have fallen in love with the challenge. I’ve fallen in love with trying to figure out how to get over the internal doubts of saying there’s no way you can do this. I’m more sure this is what I want to do more than anything else, but the clock is still ticking.
If I can’t begin to make more money, I have to admit defeat. Although people around me say that defeat is the wrong word, that’s what it feels like and my ego would be far too hurt to say it was anything less. A mentor of mine told me months ago I should’ve gotten a job at that time so when April does get here it doesn’t feel like defeat but more so like a stepping stone in my goal. Well, I didn’t listen and truthfully I can’t get a job at a gym so I doubt a venture fund would hire me anyways.
I’ve started to play offense with this ticking clock. Instead of being scared of the progress and scared of not knowing if I can do it, I just began to go for it incredibly aggressively. It’s paid off and momentum is on our side at the moment. But then again,
The clock is ticking.
This blog is a two part-er because I want to talk about loneliness for a second. Someone close to me told me that I needed to start talking to them about things that aren’t work related. Problem is I don’t really have anything else going on, besides my Monopoly Saturday games of course. But I’ll be honest, that stung a little.
It’s hard to get excited about a business when it’s just you. It’s even harder when it’s a business that’s not incredibly sexy like newsletters. It might be better to not get excited about anything and just keep your head down, but wins are wins and a lot of the time those wins have to be internalised. Nobody is going to care more about your business than you, and I just have to accept that.
On the bright side I did find someone who has done this before and works through things and lets me get excited whenever we call, which is nice. Anyways a little lonely rant for all of you.
Things I’ve thought about this week
- I could be competitive if Monopoly was in the Olympics
- I could not be competitive if spikeball was in the Olympics
- Businesses never pay right away.
- I’m curious what will happen to people around me when I’m successful
- Probably won’t have to worry about it
- I need to work out in the morning
- Duke might have a chance
- Dustin might get the title shot
- I suck at sales
- I should delete social media
- How would I giggle at memes I’m sent 5 times a day if I did?
- I’m a bad writer selling a writing service
- Fear is scared to death of you
- I’m waiting for the day I feel financially comfortable to let loose on a night out for the first time since university and I’m pumped for it
- Class Clown has the best burger in the city
- I have no idea how to set up dual monitors
- It’s almost April my god
- I forgot to text my grandmother back and she probably thinks I’m dead
- I would love to take a private jet
- One day